Spike R.L.R.L.N Santarius IV

Quite a while if i do think so correctly. it seems not many people have been updating these things recently which (amongst just being forgetfull) has caused me to not either. ok fine, truthfull i just forgot i had a blog.

So basically, ive found a girlfriend and a job (earlier happened a bit ago... latter happened sooner)... hopefully both should turn out good.

I honestly dont know what to say, its been too long.

I have two weeks of some sort of trining type thing with the jobcentre to do, im not sure whats happeneing but i have to go in from 9am - 3pm every day for two weeks and all ive been told is were doing cv building... however if i dont go i will miss out on somewhere between £400 and £1000 in payments up untill i start my job D=

anyhow thats all for now =3

Spike revy lawliet rin lelouch neko santarius IV

So, im kinda annoyed at the moment... for various reasons due to a select few people... its nothing fantastically major but its still enough to get me going.

I just wanted to say that... because im gonna try not to say who, or why... unless you really annoy me more... then i probably will.

good day to you all

UPDATE... i just found john williamson's music on spotify... im like really emotional right now because of this... john williamson is like an awesome musician... and hes australian (but im still annoyed)

"Type: Normal You are young, impressionable and full of life. You are craving something out of life but you're not sure what. You could grow to be many different things but right now you're just happy taking it all in and getting everything you can out of existing. You are clever and have a lot of promise but you future is uncertain and can go any number of ways depending on the choices you make. You're kind of a follower but you always have you're eye on the leader because you want that power someday. But today you're sweet, unassuming and youthful. Enjoy it while it lasts."

i feel this fits rather well with me =3

"Let it never be said that romance is dead
'Cos there's so little else occupying my head
There is nothing I need 'cept the function to breathe
But I'm not really fussed, doesn't matter to me"

I start of with this as the last few days for me have been quite bad, I've tried my best to hide it but its inevitable I guess, see I live my like in a Zen like way, I accept all and dismiss none, I am happy with the world and therefore I am content, however if you live mostly in a state of "nonchalance" it is inevitable that sadness will collect in the duration of a long time and will all come out in one burst at one point every so often. that happened to be this weekend.

I've been told that the FurMeets tend to go a bit AWOL around summer due to wanting to do other things, I can sort of see the reasoning in that but I also kinda think if your in a fandom you shouldn't get restless when its not convenient for them, but I will not criticize because then that would mean I'm a hypocrite as I know I have done that many times myself.
 

Oh shit, brick just came on my mp3 player, I automatically cry whenever this song comes on on... oh well, ill be better in like 5 mins

Well, that and a few other things, the FurMeet turned out to be rather like a Geordie soap opera... in fact I'm getting a group pic done in the style of a Geordie soap opera... but so much happened its hart to really say it all so I wont. anyway, it hasn't lasted long, I'm getting better as I type, so this takes me to the opening lyrics, that depicts how my mind is in its Zen form, I do not need nor care much about physical possessions and I'm rather undecided on anything, I prefer to just go with the flow so to speak.

So I've done a few things in the last weeks or so, I've seen Widor playing organs at a number of different churches (also the bells in Newcastle) I've met a few new people, I've seen a few new places, explored Durham a bit more, I just need a job and a flat and I'd be good I guess.

Anyway, that's about all to say for now, I'm gonna leave you with a different part of the earlier mentioned song and the sentence "people are complicated.

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

"Could it be, could it be, that you're joking with me
And you don't really see you with me"

Random Panic Attacks

I don't like them D=

Oh well, it wont last long, there a number of reasons which when added together can cause the effects of a panic attack and i seem to be doing them all.

All will be well soon enough

Also i have a bowler hat

Neko Santarius

when i need a hug, its annoying when you annoy someone because you tell them your views on a subject...

I'm rather happy...

Yeah, so the thing i wanted to do... didn't do it, there's no point.

I tried to but got told something which kinda stopped the plan before it had even started. I'm not sure what to think now, its not bad by all means, its something ive learned not to take too seriously, like most things. this means i can just move on but still... i must reflect upon it and see.

Oh well... i am off to bed, i must be up in about 4 hours

Hope you all are happily asleep or having fun somewhere =3

So, I've been gone a while... truthfully I completely forgot I even had blogs, oh well... I'm back now.

anyway, for some reason ive had "Caramelldansen" stuck in my head for like a week now or something and its still great, but then again the dance is better =D... especially done anime or fur style

There's something I want to do but kinda don't... well, its not that I don't want to, it's just... well, I'm quite nervous at doing said thing... its not that I haven't done it before I just haven't done it in a while (just to stop all you who might be thinking sex at this point... its not that) it is something of which I may have reason to think I don't want if I didn't know that I'm pretty sure I do want it, I'm just nervous which is sort of stopping me doing what it is I want... it may be a lot more simple if I had a chance to do the thing I want to do soon however it may be a while before the next chance comes around so my mind is constantly switching between confidence and well... being scared... I just hope I'm in a confident point at the time I get a chance to try.

If any of that actually made any sense... oh well

That's all from me right now

=3

1) rbw was a no-go ... damn over 18 rule... im a man of my pack, if one member has to be left behind i will always stay and help
2) Red dwarf only had 8 season... NOTHING MORE
3) my laptop screen is extremely smegged up
4) still dont have a job

however, i did get the headshot which is now my display pic for this =D